this note was written by me towards the end of my college years……

how many times can one forgive the same person for mistakes a shade different than the other…. how many times can one repeat this futile action knowing fully well forgiveness doesnt make u forget. and does forgiveness really helps does it make one let go of that feeling of being let down, betrayed upset and correctly in the words of my frnd aditi eeyuck. we all knw the answer is and will always be a no.
leaving mart wud have been such a huge turning point in my life i never imagined….. how 4 years down the line also i still have that feeling of being a misfit( its like a second name to me nw) yyyy its nt like each and every person frm mart feels such then y me. does the fault lie with me am i nt ready to let go my age old compulsive habit.
but nw this age old habit is becuming a huge pain in the ass…… i wanted to be cut off frm college so i tuk a place 20 kms away nw wht else is still left of it tht i want myself to be cut off. will a life of isolation help or will it too just be a temporary escape route. but then again the series of questions becum longer does confronting sum1 who is ready to brush u away an intelligent choice… or alienation is the key to the problem. and if it is how much is enuf……..
its almost the tata time when ppl like to leave behind a trail of gud memories…..but then y do i nt hv this feeling… farewell of 12 was like a year full of memories. we wanted to close each other in a shell of eternity to preserve each other… but this time farewell is like running away of forgetting wht existed of erasing it like a bad nightmare ( which still though cums back to u)…… then is wiping out the solution……. see the questions never end……

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