Everything that I write is a kind of battle won—or lost—against silence and incoherence—Geoffrey Hill
Over the last few years what I have missed the most about my writing is honesty. The idea that I could speak my mind through words. Maybe because the blog got noticed or that too many readers had a say in comments or otherwise. And when did my writing become tamed to the boundaries of its exposure, I cannot say.
And this grew to be one of my biggest regrets. One that drove me to walk off this very space for almost close to a year. The jury is still out on if this break had an effect.
But one can say that identifying the problem was easy with the freely available time and distance.
What is writing to me?
It is an expression. Of who I could be. Of who I couldn’t be. Of polished drafts and incomplete thoughts.
Of ideas that may see no end. Of stories that see new beginnings and amends.
But at the end of the day I want my writing to speak who I am. Of what I believe. What I wish to believe. It is so scary to put yourself out there. For so many eyes to observe, so many minds who think. And so many advocates of free expression, who judge. Irony, anyone?
I get scared when I realise that almost every second travel post looks the same to me. I get jittery to notice I haven’t quite enjoyed any book review all these years. Skeptical that some unknown food blog made more sense than the well curated content oriented video recipe embedded did.
You understand my dilemma? Do you notice the chaos that is me tonight?
So many voices are getting lost in their trials of getting heard. So many ideas muted to gel with the herd.
All because we didn’t have the strength to tell them. “I guess you are doing it better your own way”.
No it is not a rant. I know this blog has come to pass many such on countless sleepless nights.
This one is simply a heart to heart chat.
I ask tonight, have we over the years through our own ways to fit in, discouraged someone else from being themselves?
When was the last time you discovered a blog and said, “I have never read that.”
When the button hits publish, I will go off to sleep. And do you know what thought I take with me before that?
The thought that I discover at least one blog every week which makes me say, “I have never read that.”
This week I will discover the blogs and bloggers in my twitter list. So many who got connected through the written word over these last few years.
Last minute musings?
It feels good to be you in another person’s blog post.
This week #Blogchatter prompt is ‘Would you like you, if you met you?’ Tell us would you appreciate the person you have come to pass in this life?
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